Vulnerability
Last week I sat down with Karen Carrington on her brand new show 'The Karen Carrington Show' and it was a huge step in my Spiritual Healing journey!
I practiced some deep meditation and breathing on the way there because I was super nervous, but I arrived at a very centred and calm place. I felt ready! Karen made me feel so comfortable. She has a way about her, a realness, an authentic caring in wanting to know who you are. A beautiful vibration began to fill the room. I love to share some of the amazing experiences I am going through in my life, but when it comes to my childhood/youth and the tough things that I went through, sharing publicly can be a very scary step for me. I wanted to really dig deep and tell my story and I did! It puts a lot of context around why I do what I do now. Why I create art and educate children, youth and families on how art can be used as a tool to heal and express their stories. If you ever wondered why I work so hard to build and carve out space for myself to work my magic through art, it is because creating art saved my life!
after the show!
After my interview, I felt so uplifted. My courage held me throughout the interview and being centred within my spiritual essence allowed me to articulate my truth. The views were great and feedback even better. I began to hear from women that I helped by sharing my story. I was in a whirlwind of light! Then I began to have this uneasy feeling in the pit of my tummy and started to think how my family would see this interview and me for not letting them know that I would be sharing some 'stuff' from our past. I felt pangs of guilt, pain and fear of the potential reactions I may receive from my family. I immediately went within and used tools that I have learned throughout my Sacred Leadership Training to honour my journey and detach from the path that others are on. I understood better that this is my journey and nobody else's. If anything came up for my family members, then it would have to be their choice to do something about it or not. This has nothing to do with me. I can support them, but I cannot control how they react. Phew! Now I felt that I could go back to the light that I was soaking in, soaking up and emitting from my soul!
Then I heard from my cousin, aunties, and my MOM! They shared loving words of support and expressions of reverence and joy for my courage and articulation. I am over the Moon for their reaffirmations and feel so held in this place of love!
Vulnerability is as real as it gets. To me, this word means so much and is synonymous to LIVING LIFE! If we cannot be real, share our sadness, pain along with our victories and joys, then how human are we? Everyone experiences an array of emotions with any given experience, good or bad, and sharing how we feel is so important in the evolution of our spirits. Living in higher consciousness is about connection to our spirit and to the Divine Essence around us. It's about deepening our gratitude for the abundance around us and recognising that WE are all WE need. YOU are enough! Your very existence and being is enough! You can change the world by sharing your truth and your Spirit!
So, I GIVE THANKS! I am so grateful for Karen, for the platform she is creating, for her voice and energy that attracts and brings out these stories deep within us. I am grateful for my childhood, the good, the bad and the ugly. For the joyful moments, triumphs, pain, and trauma. I give thanks for every step before my next one and for the steps along this journey that have made me who I am in this very moment. I give thanks for the present and all that is, around and within me. I am so grateful for the courage to share and put into words what I have only been able to create in art. I am so thankful for the impact that I am having on others and for the transformative healing powers this experience has had on me.
Check out the complete interview here: https://www.facebook.com/frequency5fm/videos/1342143562581945/
This piece is written in loving memory of my late great Mom, Grandma and Friend - Patricia Campbell. Happy Birthday, we miss you and we love you~
The very last pic we took together june, 2015 xo